boop pa poop

wham bham kazaam is all i can say.

chan chan

We've been through alot huh? haill yeah! First I met the fat lard tiffany, Rusty Black mamba, and Chan chan The ghost, by E=mc2. I really met you guys that day when fannie was going to ask johnnie to sadies. OH MAN WHEN I FIRST SAW CHAN CHAN... I didnt know what to say. I WAS LIKE THIS IS THAT NIGGAH THAT ALMOST KILLED YOU AT GMR? THIS NIGGAH ALREADY LOOKS DEAD + his funny raybans...-_- jk!

anyways to cut things short.


Dear Chan MAN,
Hey, I don't know when you will be able to read this and all, but I hope it's soon.
Hey Mr. COCKY always thinking you can get girls.. haha jkays I think that was one of our first conversations. How all the girls in diamond ranch kneels before your feet, wow you sure were one of my highlights of my days. Even though most of our memories were eating macdonalds all day at least we never get bored. You never seem to fail when we want to go out, you were always there even if you were going to get introuble. I remember when we had that competition who would get the girl first between you and nick and i almost gave up on you... BECAUSE YOU HAD NO CLUE ON WHAT THE FUCK YOU WHERE DOING. haha jkays Im glad i was your So called "wingman" Its been fun hanging out with you most of mah days. I hope you stay safe and get buff. I wish you will miss us as much as we miss you. We wont ever replace our sperm in our group and the man who kills cars."its okay-_- im an animal killer for some reason-_-" But hey Dont let anyone put you down or put down your dreams.. be the man who you want to be.
be gewd. mister. Chan chan.
it feels like i knew you forever coz we hang so fucking damn much.

ps. JUSTIN SAYS HI YOU MOTHA FUCKIN PALE ASS MOTHA FUCKING MOTHA FUCKING SPERM.
Jeric- hey man... ill karate chop your dad for you JK he still thinks im a homosexual -_- i bet when you come back he will still think the same of me. Can i cuddle with him while ur gone. SIKE-_-

peace in the middle east
jeric joel mo fucking devela

friends.

Haha I remember everything.. of course I do. Things may have happened this way.. But it doesn't mean life moves on? right? =] Of course your right, We live our individual lives now and barely even know whats going on with each others. It's okay trust me. It's not like we can not be friends? It is better that way, no more pain and suffering for the both of us. Even though our memories are strong, I dont ever want to hurt you again. I'm just glad to call you mah friend. Keep on smiling you fattie mac fat fat =D e=mc2

personal message to you.-=Never let anyone ever put you down, keep on smiling if someone says its impossible, let them know you can change anything in your own hands. When one person does bad, it doesnt mean he's the mascot for every other guys. Listen to your instinct and just follow your heart. Be who you are and just have fun and live life! I was right gurls suck more =] I win! haha jk

yours truly
jeric joel mofucking devela

ps. thanks for the american apparel that we bothed shopped online LOL =D

can we kick it? yes you can

It's been too much already, too much friends/families I've lost. In the beginning I've suffered pain and misery..I learned from many experiences to endure the pain and kill it. To extinguish the fact that every one dies and people moves on. Of course, it's naive of what i've done. To take out the emotion that is needed for people to remember the love ones that was in there life time. After a few deaths and a few lost I didn't seem to care what happens to the others. I will treasure the things that I have and will not dwell on the things that I've have lost. 

 I learned a new method recently. I will embraced them with everything I have until they are gone. I will appreciate that they chose to be with me, they chose to endure the same hardship and misery with me, and they chose to be with me when times were merry and adventitious.  I will keep in mind that our memories will never be lost in my heart. 

To the close friends I have now and the past... No matter where you guys are now, you guys were and will always be special in my EYES.

-jeric joel MOfawking Devela

keep on smiling =]!

disclosed

Summer is finally coming to an end. This summer had many ups and downs.
ups--
been out everyday
found a group that you can be with for a long time
made many new friends
friends that you know that are always there
no bullshit
love fest was dope
girlie
seeing the people got hurt alright
bought a hamster named batman
downs==
seeing richard, jun and landon cry
being in the hospital(#1 that sucks =[ #2 seeing patients that are hurt/sick #3 michelle #4 i hate hospitals)
the lost of someone in the end of summer, R.I.P
no mt sac classes so far -_-
army wont accept me
friends getting in to trouble
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Things that happened, Things people did, People suffering... At least we all know who the gewd people are. Don't dwell on anythang live your life to the fullest with full of happiness! thanks everyone in making mah life even better.

slammed

It's over, its been over. I am pretty glad it happened this way and I've already moved on... Don't get me wrong, I miss her, but only as a friend. I know Mr.CC that you think I am not over e=mc2 because of my bracelet and other shit.. It's just that I feel naked without it.. after wearing it every day it feels like it is part of me(pretty gay i know haha). I understand your confused little mind because no one has never been confused before missssssssster! It's okay I understand what you were talking bout I just pretended not to know haha SARRIE! We don't know what the future will be no one will. So don't stress that mind of yours because I already stressed enough in the past. I'll still be the optimistic little self haha and oh yea I'm a dreamer.
sarrie again mister.

To you. Hey misssaay

farenheit 451

it is a special pleasure to see the things i saw, to see see thing blackened and changed. To see the whole world around me, to think that i thought this way. i wouldve never thought that i would live my life this way, by the things that happened in the past, im glad this is the way my life was meant to be, i can never imagine living it another way, being depressed or alone. my life is full of good hearted people, everyone is so different and unique in their own way, i appreciate who they are. i've never regretted on moment of my life. i would never change any thing that happened whatsoever : ) even though people say i chose some bad friends and some good friends no matter waht they say i know that everyone has good in their heart. Each person taught me something once at least therefore i am strong as i am now. So this is for the friends and family that are up in the sky watching me now. kevin fu, chris henningsfield, michael tan, uncle budz.

p.s have a good one suckaaa : )

p.s.s Good to be free just like a bird with no one ever slapping you down. flap your wings up to the sky until you know you are happy. Do whatever youwant, move whereever you want, do the things that will satisfy your dreams. even tho the rain will stop you from flapping just remember that the rain will go away and you will flap again another day.

--jeric joel mofuckin devela

underground beneath the surface..

Summers coming to an end.. hoping it'll end with a blast!
7 more days for love fest.

I know you are trying your best.. and I know the past was the past, I'm sorry that I grew up the person that you didn't want me to be.. Don't get me wrong, but I am satisfied with the life I lived. I actually felt bad for once, when you invited me to go out somewhere and I couldn't, the face you gave me was a depressed face that I couldn't take out of my mind. I am sorry that I was reckless, stupid, and unique. You made me who I am and I got stronger because of you. I love you and the things you think.... Sometimes I wished that you used your ears instead of your eyes. We are different you are stubborn and bias, while i actually care what others think.

I can't wait to show you up in your face and tell you hey I'm successful without you, but thanks for always being there for me.

bull shit

phillips pizza looked gewd in the outside but its hurting me in the endside. FUCK STOMACH ACHES ENUF SAID!

hey yo lay low!

our ugly faces

gay faces

smile =D

stephanie is behind us
HAHAAHAH this one made me laugh

times rough,times weird, in the end finally its going great...
my life IS where it is suppose to be.
SMILE =D

senses

when a door closes a new one opens, too bad the special door that closed cant ever be replace...

anyways... Life what can I say it's so funny =D I love life.
What can I do without friends? NADA! Days are passing so fast... Can't wait! =D

ps. I miss your little bro! IF I EVER SEE HIM IMA GIVE HIM A BIGGGGGGGGGGGG HUG =D!

beach 20 FEET HIGH WAVES - DOPE!

movies! love movie nights haha =D

=]

Jeric Joel Mo Fucken Devela
1. GOOD LIFE!
2. Beaches with the bestests.
3. Morongo... it was fun though!
4. Alone for 10 days.
5.brother tsaur!
6.Bestie!
7.Stiffy!
8. Thanks everyone for everythang! =D

Lets live life have fun with out worries =]!
Sky high Sky high Sky high!!! Please let me up there for a while!

all in all it was gewd i think?

beyond the thoughts! always think positive =]

If you want to get somewhere, you have to know where you want to go and how to get there. Then never, never, never give up.
The secret of life isn't what happens to you, but what you do with what happens to you.
Help other people to cope with their problems and your own will be easier to cope with.
Never use the word impossible seriously again. Toss it into the verbal wastebasket.
Self-trust is the first secret of success. So believe in and trust yourself.
Stand up to your obstacles and do something about them. You will find that they haven't half the strength you think they have.
Joy increases as you give it, and diminishes as you try to keep it for yourself. In giving it, you will accumulate a deposit of joy greater than you ever believed possible.
How you think about a problem is more important than the problem itself - so always think positively.
Go at life with abandon; give it all you've got. And life will give all it has to you.
Remember putting effort in what you have, you can make the impossible possible.

Everyone put your hands up high to reach the sky=]! ( ps.) I wont let anyone take you away from me.
the sky aint nothing but a limit. my limit is endless.

jeric joel mofawking devela.

were too young to know.

Am I seriously the only one really happy in the group?! whatta vice versa... everyone just smile and hope the best =]

#1 hey buddy ol' pal? we've been through thick and thin. Who's making you happy? I know I don't understand the situation because I've never been through what your going through now. I'm just letting you know you can make anything happen if you put your mind to it. Don't dwell in other peoples lives, Live your life how you used to live it. You are a fun and great person so I know you can make your self happy. Love you aki.

#2. Hey, whats wrong withchu? you putting blame on other people because you've got a disease. HEY! Dont trip chocolate chip. We wont treat you differently, Especially in my eyes you will still be the same person as I first saw. Don't get mad on little things and you know what? you are just ruining your life being mad all the time. Instead of wasting your time in being happy and making memories, you are just wasting your life in disappointment and suffering. Please come back=] i miss you. But hey thanks for always being there for me =]

#3. DONT EVER LET ANYONE PUT YOU DOWN. QUIT ASSUMING BECAUSE YOU'LL MAKE AN ASS OF YOU AND ME =D HAR HAR HAR. Hey you told me this wont change you too... What happened mr. bi polar? keep it real and quit lieing to your self. I know all yall better than ya think =] a mode = bad but your mode is even worse.

I know is weird huh? I put my self together and you guys were all there for me. kinda vise versa now. I am only one person and it feels like im always in the middle. Dont get mad because im always the same cheery person :] Ill try my best to do whatever it takes! you guys are like my family. Smile and you might believe your happy. NO one can make you happy but yourselves. Lets live our lives with everything we gots. lets make the impossible possible.

#4 I hope your happy I miss you lots =] thats all i gots to say Love you! =D

Time.

I want you to know that I'm waiting for you. Although I know I shouldn't be, I still am and I will be for a while. When will you come back in my life. hurry.

towards me

I did not know you still read my blog. Everything I wrote was how i feel and what i feel, but nothing towards you. Even though I feel the way i am, the only thing i want to be with you is just a goodfriend, nothing more. Dont get me wrong I am happy with my life, never trade it for the world

is space really the answer?

I am sorry that I have never been granted your full trust, I am sorry that I wasn't tangible at the moments needed, Despite what we have been through I would never trade it for anything life gives me, you are my strength, my soul and entire well being, From what I have done in the past to make you worry, I full heartedly apologize for those events. We've been through so many trials and tribulations, but why throw in the towel now when these instances have only made us stronger. No one will really know what is meant to be or what is in store for us in the far future, me as well as many others know, that you are the ONLY one that can dictate whether you are happy or not, Even though you say space is the only thing that can mend our wounds, The truth still stays that once we are together the old flame we once had will be rekindled.


You have made me scared of love. Give yourself a pat on the back, because now I feel impossible to reach. <<<<<<>>>>>>

Even though you broke my heart.. I think about something you did or said everyday and I still smile to myself. I hate how it ended and it makes me want to die, just knowing I'll never have you again.

fuh fuh fun in the sun?

hey, laaaaaalife
I need moh sleep, but it's alright! life is pretty swell. Fun times...Fun times just keeps on coming! Sun WHERE ARE YOUR FRIENDS THE CLOUDS?
hi, im jeric joel mofucking devela.
dropped off by a stork in march 19 1991.
a light skinned filipino.
mofucking graduated in Walnut HighSchool.
Hate mofucking spiders =\ cuhhhreeeeepy
love fambam.
meet my brothers, they da best, misss ya fraaaaaaaaankie.
loves to smile.
Doesnt like to get sad.
just keep it simple.=]
likes to meet new people.
AND REALLY LOVES TO LAUGH.

Hi world get at me! :]

as much as i hate to say.

I think my limit is finally comming to an end...I hate to say it but that's life? Maybe, just maybe this will make me feel better or just even worse. As much as i want you to trust me and love me like i do to you. I guess your mind is up. I dont want to change it, but it's an instinct to just do. I guess i really do love you. I want you there and here. i'm willing to risk it for my happiness. If no then im willing to risk not being you for my sake. my limit the sky is slowly turning in to a fog.

wish

wishing in 11:11 is a da real thang. only if you knew how much i care about you. you think this is easy to answer? I wish it was, then my mind wouldn't be so drained. The only thing i know is how feel about u. It never changed once, never even thought about anything else when you broke up with me. No matter what you do to me, i cant never let go of your hand... I supered GLUE THAT SHIT =D. please lemme gain your trust back. please lemme just be happy.

your thinking the best for you, while i think the best not for myself but for you too.

the winner is...!

You guys with all the rumors, with all the lies, with all the accusations, with all the hate for "us" made us stronger, but also made us fall.. Isn't it everything already over? Then why do you guys still try to make our life horrible? I already lost someone that can keep my mind sane, but now she's gone, so just please stop. Were already just "friends". But you guys still come up with silly games that hovers around us like bee's and honeys. I am out of highschool, I dont need your fun and games that will hurt people.

hello there

Sorry if im hurting you more by not giving you space! It's okay now, I wanted to tell you that if you want it this way, its your way all da way. I thought that we can still pull it through and still tried my hardest even when i said i was gnna give up. I guess this is my first step in growing up! you are oh so still important to me. But losing you is just how life is right? =] dont worry ill get over it. I'll respect everything you need and want, just make sure ur content with it. I still treasure it and miss it, but we still have a long time in life. i hope both of us will be happy! dont ever regret anything because everything in your past made you who u are =D

- jeric joel mofucking devela

ps. hellya im the king.

missing.

isn't it weird how I think it's not to soon to hang out with you? I think your forcingly fading away because you are scared of what's going to happen in the future. =D it's okay dear, we are all the same. Everyone want's to know the future! I know I do! but that is impossible. We just have to live our life and just have fun =D I wish I can hang out with you tomorrow...! life is just not the same with out you, I already got used of the ways where we always talk and just laugh. It's hard when you just stop seeing someone out of the blue. I can't help it, but I do want to hang out with you. The first three days it didnt hit me because everything felt new and free. But in the end I just want to go back home where it is nice and comfy.

smile now, cry later.

instead of chasing what you have lost, treasure the things you have left.. true i lost someone very important to me, dreams making me think that she was still here with me. at least she did something well for me, showing the way where i should be. I was really lost and confused, I'll paint my dreams in to the sky, where I know I will have no limits =]. I just want you to be happy, no I want you to be great. I try to ignore everything whats going on between us because what you told me before I engraved them in the bottom of my heart. I know its hard to forget someone you care about, but as you said maybe its for the better? lemme ask you one thang though, are you really content in how things are? as long as your happy, I'm happy! always remember that! Plus my promise is strong, I won't ever leave your life no matter what we are. always and forever miss =D

#I won't look down upon people that judges me thinking I am bad at heart... Does any of you even really know me to judge me? High school mode is done everyone, after high school it's time to worry about your own problems not others. People judge me that I am not trustworthy? Who are you guys to say? With those fake words, fake smiles, and fake impressions, are they really your friends? I wish everyone will realize that you can not judge anyone till you actually know them. I understand I made mistakes before but at least I'm trying to fix them. If you just met them or heard rumors dont judge, actually meet them for yourself and judge them with your own eyes. Dont judge them by your ears.


- ps. who cares? just smile =D

why.

why... why ... am i crying like someone died? please stop.... please just stop crying.

=]

No one can stop me to pursue what I want. Happiness is just around the corner! living my life with no hesitation, is what everyone should do. I've been risking everything I've got for a long time now! Finally the results are coming in. Live and Love Life.






BOOM CHICKA WOW WOW

we were brothers

Damn, they were right when you will realize something when you lose it. I realize you are one of the best friends i ever had. I called you my brother, I relied on you when things gets hard or when I needed to talk to some one when life ain't going my way(mostly my baby jaekae). You taught me so many things, from what is right and what is definitely wrong. Now, we are living separate lives knowing that our family doesn't want us to be near each other. We have the best girls anyone can possibly get, so lets make the best of it.




---- even if our parents dont want us to hang out, we always still find a way to keep in touch. Thanks my brother.

Damn, the last post was the night of the arrestion? Well anyways I've been thinking alot-_- every where i went. I didn't think of anyone but you, scared and hopeless knowing the fact I was going to lose you if i was there. But now im out and I'm even more scared to lose you... I thought hey if i tried to get out by a week instead of 1 year or 3 years, then it might not be a problem. Yea i know that's immature, I did anything just to get out and be with u. Desperate as it was I still knew what was right and what was wrong. Knowing the promises I gave you, knowing what i want and what i need. I know you don't trust me anymore, you don't believe in what i do anymore, and you wouldn't want the same suffering and pain that i gave you anymore. I know you're scared of me leaving you thats why your putting your bestfriends first. It's alright, sometimes i don't think when i say shit, but hey I know you heard this a million times from me, but i would do anything just to be standing next to you. I'm trying to make the best out of it. My life is still where i want it to be, but if your gone, then life will suck. but babe, I wont ever leave you, I wont ever give up on you, I wont ever do anything to hurt you. That little boy will follow that big girl no matter where she goes. It would be nice if she holds that little boys hand and navigate him where to go.(meaning: guide him and help him, because you make an impact)

please.. no more cops
please.. no more jail food.
please.. no more away time from emily fucking cheng.

jeric joel mofucking devela

everything is passing by.. i tried it more than enough times to stop it all by myself.





ps. hi babe =D

you cant walk all over me.

3 days... hardest part is almost done! cravings are going away and the crankiness too.



I don't know.
I think I gave out too easily.

insanity?

I never passed a month in a relationship, nor i am not good at this lubby dubby stuff... I don't know what to do after 2 months passes by. I am glad i made it this far, I am glad that I am still keeping strong. Is it worth it? The pain, The misery, and the irritation of one another, just for a few moments of happiness? I think it is, the more you keep up with someone, even if they irritate you in the end there will be more happiness that you can bare.

but for now i think i am going crazy-_-


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Fambam, is a piece of disfunctional. Parents? what parents? I miss you gran=pa hope you are doing well up there. we are stuck in a hole where the hole just keeps on getting bigger, I tried to find a rope, but i ended up with a shovel.

closure.

I do things without thinking it out. I just do what my instincts tell me what I think it's right. Sorry, I guess I didn't see it in anyone else's point of view except mine. It wasn't my business and I wont interfere ever again.

Life is getting harder for me but you know what? I'm not going to quit, you can if you like, but i will not definitely wont.

Life is putting itself into pieces

Pieces of the puzzle is just cruising by, making life more understandable by the minute. In second period today in Mrs. Sandavol's class she was talking about relationships! I was just going to go to sleep and didn't have any intentions to listen. But then i was just like heck, ill sleep in five minutes. WOW that heffar actually knows what she was talking bout, or she was convincing enough! The whole class was all in to it, surprinsingly! What is love she says? Her eyes grew big by how many hands she saw rose up. Love is Romantic, frustrating, time consuming, stupid, heart aches, headaches, intimacy, trust, faith, hope, a rollercoster ride, surprising, funny,commitment, and happiness(there was more but i forgot HAHA). She told us that you guys may think its all these but its not.( I personally thought that all these, even if its heartaches and trust it all leads to your happiness.) boy was i wrong! Love is all about commitment. Without commitment you have bullshit. My eyes opened as i heard more, I look at tiffany and say hey my relationship right now is pretty good! Better then everyone elses! We barely fight, i never yell at her, were not clingy, I try to listen to what she has to say, and I will never hurt her intentionally. I dont know why but I think i am finally commited to someone that i really really care about, when times were going hard for us both, i did not give up. Sure i was scared, but i did not think about giving up unless if it was for your HAPPINESS.
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There is another type of love, it is called Toxic Love. Toxic love is bad bad bad bad! Jelousy, violence, manipulation, and power control. People shouldnt ever control the person they love. They have no rights to tell them what to do or what to wear. Jealousy, calling them every 2 seconds will make them likely more to cheat. manipulation will only work for a while then it will disappoint you. all these leads to violence, maybe emotions or physically.

ps. sorry i just woke up! haha =D

I always fail tests

Yeahh.. maybe your right? love in first sight wtheck is that? nothing hard ever came between us.. wondering thinking will it affect us? Will i give up or will i take the pain and keep on going? Soon, soon i Will know if i really do love you and never leave you. Summer is comming and college is on its way. Try hard to stick to the person you care about. This is the test I've been waiting for.


maybe i like you more then you like me. i ono thats how i just feel

pin point

"I may not get to see you as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night. But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love, and I can't let you go."

What in tarnations is this?
If you love something so much, sooner or later they will turn around and disappoint you! My world is spinning in circles... Making me petrified in moving forward. Will the pain and misery be all worth it? Will the work on moving ahead in the mere future be all worth it? I ask myself this once in a blue while.


I know you are scared.. scared to love.. scared to be love... and scared to get thrown away. I've been living my life on the edge of the seats when im with you. I do not know when this happiness will be taken over by pain, but its all worth it for the memories. Your scared that when you finally say you love someone, they will leave because they finally got the word they are looking for. You're scared that your gonna give it your best and they will not want it and just leave you in the cold. I got that aura from u for quite some time now. I told you, even if its as a friend, bestfriend, boyfriend, or aqaintince ill still be glad your in my life.

now you know

friends are friends. if your a real friend, you'll always be there for them no matter what.... sure, first think and then think about the consequences that will happen. We all are here for each other and im glad, but some of us dont deserve this kinda of shit thats been with me for years. Nick, I am really sorry for what I showed you and what always happen when your with me. You know the procedures, you already know everything. To you I'm predictable, and for that I am sorry. You say its your own will, but it is also my own will to stop you. I am very fawking sorry.
I am what I am, I cant change anything about me unless its for me. E=mc2, thanks but if anything happens to u, i would just act without thinking. that's how much i care. I know you say nothing will happen to you but, if anything does, I will act with out thinking.

no guns
no firecrackers =D
no freaking weapons
except the guns in my arm HAHAHHAHAH =D man im kewl

little bit do matter

Were guys... c'mon do you know how we think? If a guy likes a beautiful women, he will start to think a lot.... Little things you do or little actions you do, that you don't think matters, matters to us. We over react or become paranoid to the things you guys do. If we do something dumb that you guys wont even care about, we think about it for days.( oh gosh why'd i do that! Im so retarded she might think im wierd now...) thats our instincts.. soo yeuppppppppppppp

karmassabetch

Pain.PAin.PAIN. GO AWAY. my butt hole feels like its in hell. karma came around the corner, but too bad it didn't get all of me.



remember the days where it was all gewd? It's starting again... Adrenaline pumping, side jumping exertion that will fill the hole i needed to fill up. Praise me world, adore me world, Look up to me world.
--two rats was drowning in milk. 1st rat gave up and drowned, while the second rat kept paddling and turned the milk in to butter and crawled out. I'm that second rat mo'fckas

Buffalo Wings

Oozing pain from my Butt Hole... It was fun today!


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I'm losing it. Trying to ease everything with what I can. Lost in the laughs of others and the joy of the surroundings. Trying to stay calm and eazy, trying my hardest not to go insane. Please, Help Me From This Hell Hole, and raise me up in the sky to be perfect. I can't, I can't, Because it will bring me pain and misery. Never know whats my limit I choose to move on.

OH BABY YOU~ YOU GOT WHAT I NEED!

I imagined so many places where I can be. I imagined the places where things can go impossibly wrong. I imagined my places to be perfect. Thinking My Life isn't real, Thinking I am lucky I have what I have right now. It would be great if i have the things i wanted. BUT someday, maybe someday if i work hard, I will get to the place, where so many people put me down, possible.
believe.
work hard.
and be the best.

inspiration.

If there's a upside of a relationship, of course there will be and downside of a relationship. You make me worry about the little things that I won't have to worry about when I'm alone. You make me think so much that sometimes I forget I'm young, I should be living my life instead of yours. Both of us are consistently changing and were learning more and more about each other everyday. You make me see what you see in your point of view, how life is really difficult and how you can't always get what you want. I understand why you would think that way, but I am here trying to help you. To make your life so much easier. If you want to be independent then why are you in a relationship? All the promises I gave you I'm still working on it, progressing everyday to achieve those promises. I accepted everything about you, not caring how you look, just caring on how your personality is. Trying not to be shallow, and actually caring what the person is. I Lubbba dubba you.

Realize.

#1.Life.....? If you ask 50 people if their life is great, what answer would you think you would get? Life is really great, it's spontaneous, daring, challenging, and most of all stressful. People who says their life is boring, are just cowards because most of them wont even be spontaneous or try new things. What i think about life is for me to experience new things and which ones would make me happy. So be spontaneous and dont be afraid to try out new things!

#2. Am I really happy? Am I really? or is it just giving me more stress instead of not worrying bout anything at all? I never cared for anything this much. maybe, just maybe I'm just growing older. Change is not all that bad.