hello there

Sorry if im hurting you more by not giving you space! It's okay now, I wanted to tell you that if you want it this way, its your way all da way. I thought that we can still pull it through and still tried my hardest even when i said i was gnna give up. I guess this is my first step in growing up! you are oh so still important to me. But losing you is just how life is right? =] dont worry ill get over it. I'll respect everything you need and want, just make sure ur content with it. I still treasure it and miss it, but we still have a long time in life. i hope both of us will be happy! dont ever regret anything because everything in your past made you who u are =D

- jeric joel mofucking devela

ps. hellya im the king.

missing.

isn't it weird how I think it's not to soon to hang out with you? I think your forcingly fading away because you are scared of what's going to happen in the future. =D it's okay dear, we are all the same. Everyone want's to know the future! I know I do! but that is impossible. We just have to live our life and just have fun =D I wish I can hang out with you tomorrow...! life is just not the same with out you, I already got used of the ways where we always talk and just laugh. It's hard when you just stop seeing someone out of the blue. I can't help it, but I do want to hang out with you. The first three days it didnt hit me because everything felt new and free. But in the end I just want to go back home where it is nice and comfy.

smile now, cry later.

instead of chasing what you have lost, treasure the things you have left.. true i lost someone very important to me, dreams making me think that she was still here with me. at least she did something well for me, showing the way where i should be. I was really lost and confused, I'll paint my dreams in to the sky, where I know I will have no limits =]. I just want you to be happy, no I want you to be great. I try to ignore everything whats going on between us because what you told me before I engraved them in the bottom of my heart. I know its hard to forget someone you care about, but as you said maybe its for the better? lemme ask you one thang though, are you really content in how things are? as long as your happy, I'm happy! always remember that! Plus my promise is strong, I won't ever leave your life no matter what we are. always and forever miss =D

#I won't look down upon people that judges me thinking I am bad at heart... Does any of you even really know me to judge me? High school mode is done everyone, after high school it's time to worry about your own problems not others. People judge me that I am not trustworthy? Who are you guys to say? With those fake words, fake smiles, and fake impressions, are they really your friends? I wish everyone will realize that you can not judge anyone till you actually know them. I understand I made mistakes before but at least I'm trying to fix them. If you just met them or heard rumors dont judge, actually meet them for yourself and judge them with your own eyes. Dont judge them by your ears.


- ps. who cares? just smile =D

why.

why... why ... am i crying like someone died? please stop.... please just stop crying.

=]

No one can stop me to pursue what I want. Happiness is just around the corner! living my life with no hesitation, is what everyone should do. I've been risking everything I've got for a long time now! Finally the results are coming in. Live and Love Life.






BOOM CHICKA WOW WOW

we were brothers

Damn, they were right when you will realize something when you lose it. I realize you are one of the best friends i ever had. I called you my brother, I relied on you when things gets hard or when I needed to talk to some one when life ain't going my way(mostly my baby jaekae). You taught me so many things, from what is right and what is definitely wrong. Now, we are living separate lives knowing that our family doesn't want us to be near each other. We have the best girls anyone can possibly get, so lets make the best of it.




---- even if our parents dont want us to hang out, we always still find a way to keep in touch. Thanks my brother.

Damn, the last post was the night of the arrestion? Well anyways I've been thinking alot-_- every where i went. I didn't think of anyone but you, scared and hopeless knowing the fact I was going to lose you if i was there. But now im out and I'm even more scared to lose you... I thought hey if i tried to get out by a week instead of 1 year or 3 years, then it might not be a problem. Yea i know that's immature, I did anything just to get out and be with u. Desperate as it was I still knew what was right and what was wrong. Knowing the promises I gave you, knowing what i want and what i need. I know you don't trust me anymore, you don't believe in what i do anymore, and you wouldn't want the same suffering and pain that i gave you anymore. I know you're scared of me leaving you thats why your putting your bestfriends first. It's alright, sometimes i don't think when i say shit, but hey I know you heard this a million times from me, but i would do anything just to be standing next to you. I'm trying to make the best out of it. My life is still where i want it to be, but if your gone, then life will suck. but babe, I wont ever leave you, I wont ever give up on you, I wont ever do anything to hurt you. That little boy will follow that big girl no matter where she goes. It would be nice if she holds that little boys hand and navigate him where to go.(meaning: guide him and help him, because you make an impact)

please.. no more cops
please.. no more jail food.
please.. no more away time from emily fucking cheng.

jeric joel mofucking devela

everything is passing by.. i tried it more than enough times to stop it all by myself.





ps. hi babe =D