Damn, the last post was the night of the arrestion? Well anyways I've been thinking alot-_- every where i went. I didn't think of anyone but you, scared and hopeless knowing the fact I was going to lose you if i was there. But now im out and I'm even more scared to lose you... I thought hey if i tried to get out by a week instead of 1 year or 3 years, then it might not be a problem. Yea i know that's immature, I did anything just to get out and be with u. Desperate as it was I still knew what was right and what was wrong. Knowing the promises I gave you, knowing what i want and what i need. I know you don't trust me anymore, you don't believe in what i do anymore, and you wouldn't want the same suffering and pain that i gave you anymore. I know you're scared of me leaving you thats why your putting your bestfriends first. It's alright, sometimes i don't think when i say shit, but hey I know you heard this a million times from me, but i would do anything just to be standing next to you. I'm trying to make the best out of it. My life is still where i want it to be, but if your gone, then life will suck. but babe, I wont ever leave you, I wont ever give up on you, I wont ever do anything to hurt you. That little boy will follow that big girl no matter where she goes. It would be nice if she holds that little boys hand and navigate him where to go.(meaning: guide him and help him, because you make an impact)

please.. no more cops
please.. no more jail food.
please.. no more away time from emily fucking cheng.

jeric joel mofucking devela